The waiting game is killer. It's a whole different ball game, but the last month or so of school was killer each year. I would be counting down the days, staring at the clock counting down the minutes and just desperately desiring to make a mad dash out the door, never turning back. School was so terribly boring. (Especially math class, ho, ho. A solid hour of foreigners preaching an unknown language to me in monotone.) The bridal shower will probably be cool. What happened with your old job? As Pastor Tom would point out, this time will build character. Learning to patiently wait on God and His perfect time as well as doing unenjoyable monotonous things with joy, waiting ever vigilantly for that precious day when you fly out. Make sure in all your activities you are spending enough time in prayer and reading of scripture. Its very easy to forget, I know very well from experience, but it is the most important thing you can be doing right now. Concerning the riverdance, I would look at your budget, pray about, ask your parents what they think, your friend Sarah, people like that and see what they think. Have a good morning and keep it up! I hope you get better!